Poetplayhouse

Swinging The Mood

October 14, 2010

This is your daily source of emotional prescription. If symptoms persist consult your boyfriend.

Chemical Reaction

Questions plague my mind. This an itch without a cure perhaps. I wonder why people do what they do?

I wonder if they even do it like reflex or do things because they mean it? Why does it even hurt when simple things are brushed aside like dust? Why do I feel envy? Why do I hate? Why do I react so differently anymore?

Has it been too long? perhaps it is fear. Have I fed my imagination far too much it has finally driven the crazy bitch out the girl.

We used to talk longer hours, we used to laugh out loud, we used to do so many different things together…has it ebbed away with the tides of time? Has it drifted away with the waves of the gloomy oceans?

Why do I feel this way?

Perhaps a mere irritation on his forgetfulness is causing such rage of emotions. I realize how much of an angry person I am.

I feel everyone is too comfortable that they feel free to do or worse not to do whatever…Comfortable is killing me…

These days demands keep coming and going from my bewildered head. There have been far too many expectations, expectations perhaps I think might never be met. Plans are shit. they never go the way you make them.

All the effort one puts in never seem to be enough. The more one tries to reach out, the farther away it slips. 

Why do you bother to ask me to tell you stories when you listen to it with one ear and let the words run off with the other?

Simple things make me happy and it’s simple things that I find offensive and sad for the most part. I just thought I would always mean something…more than everyone else. Loving someone is selfish and will always hurt in ways you can never imagine…

 

 

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